I wrote this a couple momths ago.I was having a month full of heavy trials. Pray it blesses ya. Much Love!
Lord who is it that you saw, a troubled girl full of scars, a broken heart which you have healed. I am forever grateful. In the midst of my pain, in the midst of my tears, you came to my rescue expecting nothing in return. How could I pretend? How could I sing with joy at the work you have done. How could I praise another at the peace I have found.
Here in my room, I will quite my mouth, close my eyes, lay on my face and not pretend to be who am not because you know me to well. From you it’s impossible to hide.
With the constant noise, constant race to strive, leading nowhere worth going. I will rest in you presence, lay on your feet and cry to you, there where you once found me. Unknown and Unworthy.
Am just a girl who is far from perfection, whose sins are forgiven with each new day, who fears the future and has thoughts of what next. Who begs for mercy and prays for forgiveness.
But now there is light, now I can see; now I have hope, now there’s a future of which you hold in your hands. I can try and pretend when I leave your sight like all is well but it is here in your presence that I am unmasked.
Please help me Lord make it known to the world of how grateful I am for the nails on the cross, the pain you endured, the stripes you bared, the blood you shed, the insults you took, you could of rescued yourself but in me you thought.
A girl who would need you on days to hard, when the night was dark and the pain to hard.
Thank you Jesus for being my savior who came to my rescue for nothing in return.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
I am not happy with my body!
I am writing this because it is something I myself have dealt with, deal with and will probably still deal with in the coming years. But I know I am not alone and neither are you! It can become easier and you can over come it>>I PROMISE. I must admit that 4 years ago I didn’t understand what being insecure with your body image was, what an eating disorder was, what it can do to you, and how sooo many fall prey of this.
I Still have not met any woman who doesn't suffer from being insecure at one point in her life. My hips are too big, my stomach isn’t flat enough, My boobs are too big or too small, my legs are sooo flabby or thick. My arms are sooo thick or to thin, I have noo muscle tone. I want to be thin, skinnier, thicker, or just loose a few pounds. Point is “Good enough is never enough!” The more I talk to those in the fitness; modeling; acting industry the more I find out how insecure and judgmental we can be about our own bodies. We can be our #1 “critique.” We can see faults in our body or image that no one else does. We can destroy our own image and become paranoid of our own appearance.
Have you ever been there or am I the only one?!
Reality Check…
• Did you know that if female mannequins were real women they'd be too thin to have babies?
• There are 3 billion women who don't look like supermodels and only eight who do.
• Marilyn Monroe wore a size 14, and she is still considered beautiful.
• If Barbie was a real woman, she'd have to walk on all fours due to her proportions.
• The average woman wears between a size 12-14.
• The models in the magazines are airbrushed - no one, not even models, look that good without some help! Do not be disappointed when you open the next magazine at the grocery store and see _____ in the cover, -PHOTOSHOP. Many have admitted this statement to be true.
And here are some facts that are kinda scary...
• One out of every four college-aged women has an eating disorder.
• A psychological study in 1995 found that three minutes spent looking at a fashion magazine caused 70% of women to feel depressed, guilty, and shameful.
• Twenty years ago, models weighed 8% less than the average woman. Today they weigh 23% less.
Oh yeah, and Sarah Michelle (who is 5'3 and weighs approximately 99 lbs) has publically said this about thin celebrities; "How can women be as thin as we are? We have personal trainers to work us out. We have specially prepared meals."
Point is we are never there. We are never 100% content with our bodies, we will never have “The Perfect” body. Welcome to being human! Welcome to being a Woman! But you can choose today to walk past that and be secure in who God created you to be, you can over pass the thoughts of What ifs; Ands or Buts…What if I only lost 10 pounds or if I only gained 10 pounds or if I was only more toned or if I only got plastic surgery or if I wore a size 2 or 0, that would solve all my insecurities..?? WRONG!
Being in the acting industry my self, Dating a Fitness trainer, Model, Actor for almost 2 years puts me in the “What Ifs” category, but truth is the better in shape I get, the more weight I loose, doesn’t make me any happier! It might make me a little more confident and feeling of accomplishment.. but if I am lacking my inner food, working on the women I am inside, my character and integrity, I will never be content with my outer appearance because there will always be someone thinner; taller; prettier; talented, someone who is more CONFIDENT. That is our “KEY” CONFIDENCE in who God created us to be!” After all, he made us in His own image; In His own likeness!!!
I am not saying don’t work out and eat all the junk you want, NO! DO NOT READ WHAT I AM NOT WRITTING! What I am saying is that even the skinniest models aren’t content with their bodies, what I am telling you is that looks can be deceiving. You will not be any happier than you are now. Instead, keep a balance OF the inner and outer beauty Putting Jesus Christ above all and you will see miracles happen in your life.
A little food for thought!
Are we too concerned with how we look? The apostle Paul warns us not to put too much focus on it. "Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach...Their mind is on earthly things" (Philippians 3:19)...
Pray this prayer when you must! DO not be a victim! Psalm 139: 14-16: "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
I Still have not met any woman who doesn't suffer from being insecure at one point in her life. My hips are too big, my stomach isn’t flat enough, My boobs are too big or too small, my legs are sooo flabby or thick. My arms are sooo thick or to thin, I have noo muscle tone. I want to be thin, skinnier, thicker, or just loose a few pounds. Point is “Good enough is never enough!” The more I talk to those in the fitness; modeling; acting industry the more I find out how insecure and judgmental we can be about our own bodies. We can be our #1 “critique.” We can see faults in our body or image that no one else does. We can destroy our own image and become paranoid of our own appearance.
Have you ever been there or am I the only one?!
Reality Check…
• Did you know that if female mannequins were real women they'd be too thin to have babies?
• There are 3 billion women who don't look like supermodels and only eight who do.
• Marilyn Monroe wore a size 14, and she is still considered beautiful.
• If Barbie was a real woman, she'd have to walk on all fours due to her proportions.
• The average woman wears between a size 12-14.
• The models in the magazines are airbrushed - no one, not even models, look that good without some help! Do not be disappointed when you open the next magazine at the grocery store and see _____ in the cover, -PHOTOSHOP. Many have admitted this statement to be true.
And here are some facts that are kinda scary...
• One out of every four college-aged women has an eating disorder.
• A psychological study in 1995 found that three minutes spent looking at a fashion magazine caused 70% of women to feel depressed, guilty, and shameful.
• Twenty years ago, models weighed 8% less than the average woman. Today they weigh 23% less.
Oh yeah, and Sarah Michelle (who is 5'3 and weighs approximately 99 lbs) has publically said this about thin celebrities; "How can women be as thin as we are? We have personal trainers to work us out. We have specially prepared meals."
Point is we are never there. We are never 100% content with our bodies, we will never have “The Perfect” body. Welcome to being human! Welcome to being a Woman! But you can choose today to walk past that and be secure in who God created you to be, you can over pass the thoughts of What ifs; Ands or Buts…What if I only lost 10 pounds or if I only gained 10 pounds or if I was only more toned or if I only got plastic surgery or if I wore a size 2 or 0, that would solve all my insecurities..?? WRONG!
Being in the acting industry my self, Dating a Fitness trainer, Model, Actor for almost 2 years puts me in the “What Ifs” category, but truth is the better in shape I get, the more weight I loose, doesn’t make me any happier! It might make me a little more confident and feeling of accomplishment.. but if I am lacking my inner food, working on the women I am inside, my character and integrity, I will never be content with my outer appearance because there will always be someone thinner; taller; prettier; talented, someone who is more CONFIDENT. That is our “KEY” CONFIDENCE in who God created us to be!” After all, he made us in His own image; In His own likeness!!!
I am not saying don’t work out and eat all the junk you want, NO! DO NOT READ WHAT I AM NOT WRITTING! What I am saying is that even the skinniest models aren’t content with their bodies, what I am telling you is that looks can be deceiving. You will not be any happier than you are now. Instead, keep a balance OF the inner and outer beauty Putting Jesus Christ above all and you will see miracles happen in your life.
A little food for thought!
Are we too concerned with how we look? The apostle Paul warns us not to put too much focus on it. "Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach...Their mind is on earthly things" (Philippians 3:19)...
Pray this prayer when you must! DO not be a victim! Psalm 139: 14-16: "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
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